周某闲聊©

The Same Old Feeling

2012-02-06T11:59:00.001+08:00

There are too many things going through my mind right now. Most of them are my philosophies, the rest are some unfinished business such as luggage packing, documents printing, and some uncertainties. There I am, hitting the keyboard, write down what I feel, expose the thoughts that freshly brewed from my brain, running away from the reality.

Thinking is a very important intellectual activity that keep you alive (well, in certain circumstances it does). We think because we judge, we judge because we wanna know, we wanna know because we human are programmed to. We think, because we wanna know what is best for us, or others. One doesn't simply taking other advice, one has to think before taking others advice, regardless how good it is. Sometimes people just forget how important thinking is.

People said that we have to let go, we have to forgive others, we have to calm down, we have to open our mind. We have to think before we do all that in order to make us a better person. With sufficient thoughts, it accumulates and contributes to 'experience'.

Read more, enrich your life, colour your mind, open your eyes, broaden your view, think differently, think about something that people usually don't think about. No one can grade your thoughts. In the end, what matters the most is that you tried to think. Subjective or insufficient thinking might lead to mistakes. For a wise person, it can be a valuable lesson in return. And that is what we call 'experience'. To reduce mistakes or making a wrong choice, one has to think more.

I am still learning how to think better.

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People like to draw attentions from other. Nothing is wrong with that provided that the actions you take to draw someone's attention are constructive and positive. I can't tell you how traumatic it is to my brain when I see someone draws attention by doing something idiotic and meaningless enough. I pretend I never see a thing but in fact, I am avoiding some unwanted negative responses like "So what this is my life..." or "Mind your own business asshole..."

People then used to gain attentions and reputation by creating things, proving things, discovery and generate ideas. People now gain attentions by making their names into Guinness World Record by accomplishing some lame records like showing how many burgers he/she can eat in a row, how large a sushi can be made or changing hair style 7 times a week. The worst kind of attention whores (sorry, I can't think of a better word) treat people rudely and behave badly just to let someone notice their 'badassness'. That's just so pathetic.

The truth is that, being 'badass' and drawing unnecessary attentions doesn't make you look 'cool'. From my point of view (certainly from many others too), such behaviors reveal how immature are you physically, and how insecure are you deep inside.

You don't have to show how special you are because everyone is special.

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'The Same Old Feeling' the title goes. It is a strange and familiar feeling that I feel, a feeling that comprises many other feelings. Right now, I feel so excited (Amazing comeback from 3-0 by Manchester United against Chelsea), happy (going to Australia soon), sad (someone else is feeling sad), calm (nice music) etc etc...

Feelings interacts with thoughts (reasons, memory, facts...), giving you motives, which lead to behaviors. This can be very tiring and annoying progress if it seems endless. Just how I wish I could have Albus Dumbledore's Pensieve.

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30 Day Song Challenge - Day 18 - A Song That You Wish You Heard On The Radio

This is rare but I did get this song from radio few years back.

Random Post

2012-01-14T11:59:00.000+08:00

Chinese New Year is getting nearer and nearer.

It's not the point. Point is, I miss my late grandma a lot. Sometimes I just couldn't get over how rude I was to her during certain occasion. I felt sorry. I felt sad. Nonetheless, I am very sure that she is someone forgiving and she definitely feels happy and be proud of who I am today.

I just miss her.

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Here's something about me. If you know me well enough, you might notice that I am very 'old'. I like old things. I admit it, but I rather say that I don't like things that are too mainstream. I like something that is not usually liked by people, something people wouldn't easily impressed. I just like what people usually wouldn't notice. Another reason why I like what I like is that I feel great about it. The feeling is just cannot be described easily. I keep one principle in mind - I like things because I like them, I don't simply like things because people says it is nice. That explain why I love old songs more than the music they created today (not all new songs are bad, but most of them are bad. Good songs are hard to come by now).

People often think that old stuffs are not meant to be cool or trending. This is a very common fallacy. I wanna point out the fact that, old things evolved to what you have today. You have to acknowledge the existence, at least. The evolution of 'stuffs' can be seen everywhere: fashion, music, design, cars, film, etc etc. I came across a very meaningful quote just now.

'Nothing in music is stolen, just borrowed and made better or worse.'

I think this apply to everything we are having. Nothing gets any more true than this.

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These are the things that run through my mind now

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30 Day Songs Challenge - Day 17 - A Song That You Hear Often On The Radio

The frequency of the radios playing this song is insane, you couldn't imagine.

The Lazy Man

2012-01-10T21:15:00.000+08:00

The lazy man is referred to me. Yes you're right.

Anyway, the lazy man wanna skip all the gibberish. So here is it, 2012. While people are debating whether the Mayans predictions are true or not, I wanna clarify that I couldn't care less. All I know is that, 2012 is gonna be one hell of a year to me.

The best thing I will be doing this year is participating Monash Campus exchange program. I am gonna be in Australia for one semester. For 20 years I've been living, finally, I am achieving my goal of studying abroad. And guess what, I am pretty excited about it.

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New year resolutions? I remember I made a few last year, however, I failed to accomplish all of the resolutions I made. Specifically speaking, I failed to sleep early. Funny thing is that, no one ever mentioned what to do if one failed his/her new year resolution. Should he/she continues what he/she failed, or making new resolutions?

Anyhow, I am still gonna challenge myself for sleeping early. I am also made new resolutions that yet to be accomplished.

I am gonna get bulky, get some muscles, get toned up.

I am gonna stay healthier, sleep earlier (I have a hunch that I am still going to fail).

I am gonna fall in love, and this time, deeper.
I am gonna read a lot of books.

It's not too much or too hard to do, lets see.

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I am having this hospital attachment thing going. As I'd probably mentioned, the diagnostic lab that I am working at is quite small. Due to various reasons, there are not much tests to run, so basically I have nothing to do there. Instead of doing nothing, I read books, tons of books. So the books that I listed below are my recommendations. Take a look at these books when you're free.

Top: 放任心中的一百次流浪: Ambling to a Wayward Beat by 刘轩
Bottom Clockwise: 木炭 by 倪匡, The Rules of Love by Richard Templar, The Da Vinci Code, The Lost Symbol, Deception Point by Dan Brown

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I am glad that I restart blogging again. Also, I am looking forward to Chinese New Year, and the day I depart to Melbourne.

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30 Day Song Challenge - A Song That You Used To Love But Now You Hate.

I loved it because it's funny. Now I totally hated these songs. It's nothing personal, just that I don't like rap and hip hop anymore...

随写

2011-12-10T11:59:00.000+08:00

考完试了满久，但是始终没有feel想更新。和我熟的都知道周某我很需要feel来生活。其中也因为考完试后生活还蛮精彩的。首先是吃了很多好吃的食物。烤猪排骨，烤三层肉，进口猪肉。然后又去Chili's吃墨西哥餐。那个Fajitas的香味，到现在味蕾隐隐约约都还感觉到那阵香味。人家说吃很重要，也是一种享受。其实不只是这样，吃了一些好料，一切考试期间带来的郁闷和不快，一瞬间全都消失了。

考完试后回想起来，这个学期是很忙，但是我很享受。其实我还嫌这个学期过的太快了。今天就和阿Foo聊天聊到大学生活，结果才发现到我对自己在大学里的生活的记忆其实还蛮模糊的。怎么说呢？生活千篇一律，但偶尔会有很多趣事发生，有时还有惊喜。至于一些小细节和人物却不太记得了。那种感觉就像吃了冰淇淋的失忆症病人：嘴唇是很甜，喉咙不时传来阵阵香味，但就是想不起自己吃了什么...

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话说周某考完试了正在放假。其假期很短，才休息不久就开始进行短期的医院实习。我呆的那间医院啊，太乏味了。首先是那里的职员都不够专业，当然也不是全部。他们工作时不穿白袍，处理血液不穿手套。然后他们也不主动教我东西，也不太理睬我。而且沟通语言不同也是一个障碍。在那里我也学不到东西，算得来其实还很浪费时间。反正我不想呆在那里就是了。

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我要去澳洲。我要去看Uluru巨石。我要去看沙漠。我要看袋鼠。我要看树熊。我要看悉尼，我要看墨尔本。我要看黄金海岸。我要看大堡礁。我要看澳洲的大学。我要泡泡澳洲的美女。我要晒晒澳洲的太阳。我要喝喝澳洲的啤酒。我要吹吹澳洲的风。我要去澳洲。

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我喜欢你，你也喜欢我，我们一起fall in love吧。

以上那句话不完全是真的。相爱可以很简单，但是往往被周边很多避免不了的因素导致相爱变得很复杂。

有时，我喜欢你，你不喜欢我。

有时我喜欢你，你不喜欢我。

有时我喜欢你，你喜欢我，我们不能在一起。

但我喜欢你，你一定不能怪我。被人家喜欢，也不能怪人。这是基本规则。

有时还蛮同情受害者。

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30 Day Song Challenge - Day 15 - A song that describes you

I was considering 'Superman' by Five For Fighting, but some how this is better. I want to be a better man.

PEP - 'Post Exam Post' and not 'Phosphoenolpyruvate'

2011-11-14T18:31:00.000+08:00

DISCLAIMER: THIS IS A VERY CONFUSING POST. I TRIED TO CONVEY WHAT I FEEL AND I DON'T THINK I DID A GOOD JOB THIS TIME. SO READERS, DON'T JUDGE IT.

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Exam was over.

Strange enough, when I finish my last paper, I did not feel a least bit of gratification. Finishing exam, just bringing me closer to goodbyes. I hate goodbyes.

I even use any possible excuse to stay in campus, even my exam was over. Weird I know. I don't want to leave. Frankly, this semester was too short. This marked the half of my undergraduate life.

The moment I submitted my exchange application, I knew that I am so gonna miss a lot of things and action here in campus. Well it is just one semester. But many things can happen in one semester and I don't wanna miss it all. I will miss friends and family, I will miss many familiar faces, I will miss dancing...

Ahh, I want to run away. Lets face it, I know the day will come eventually.

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I had a very good time in these few days. First, exam was over. I did feel relieved but it was not as awesome as I expected. Still, after exam we (Anson Jeffrey Yin Xian Eva Alina Yi Zheng Ah Chen Wendy and I) visited Yin Xian's house, ate Bak Kut Teh in Klang, ate some delicious food that looted from night market and spent a good evening talking about nonsense. Saying goodbye for that night was simple, and hard.

The next post-exam celebration spot was 1U. We had Chilis there and the Fajitas was AWESOME. And I grabbed two turtlenecks and a lattice patterned T-Shirt, unbelievable.

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Despite my struggle on deciding whether to go for exchange, I do want to fulfill my dream of study abroad. I want to feel something I never feel before. I want to experience new thing. This could be a golden chance.

I hate having multiple feelings at one time.

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30 Days Song Challenge - Day 14 - A Song That No One Would Expect You To Love

Surprised ? Personally I am not really a fan of trendy music but this song is just so catchy.

Climax 2.0

2011-10-24T11:59:00.003+08:00

Climax - A period of time where all the big name assignments, quizzes and lab reports clumped together and the due date for all these fall within the same week and due dates are only 1 to 2 days apart. Usually, students in this climax period will suffer from heavy insomnia, stress, hormone imbalance, disruption of circadian rhythm and loss of body weight if stress persisted. Adapted from here

I have 1 week to study before final exam and just 2 days before the final week, I had a physiology lab report, a literature review, and a cellular metabolism lab report that got to due in 1 week time. So that week was like hell. Well, at least all the assignments and reports for my first semester were done. I have no time to regret or worry about the grades of these past assignments and quizzes.

I have exactly 1 week to study everything in this semester before the final exam commences.

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It's been a long time since the last time I update my blog. For those who anticipates my post, I am sorry. I was too busy to update my blog.

I did quite some stuffs during the M.I.A month. The highlight was that I participated the Dance & Dinner party that organized by Monash Dance Fushion Club. They certainly made me wanna dance more. So my tasks were to compete with other dancers in social class and to perform a self choreographed salsa dance with my partner and perform it on stage. It was a really cool experience and finally I knew how difficult it is to choreograph a dance. I like my dance a lot regardless the techniques and precision.

My favourite scene

Other than that, I went to had a appreciation dinner for my Cellular Metabolism lab demonstrator Yan Qi. She demands exceptional qualities in our lab report but I failed her every time, I guess. Nonetheless, we did enjoyed the dinner. It was the best pork rib that I had so far. The durian dessert was heaven like. It's pointless that I keep describing how nice it was, you should try it yourself. Restorant: Bellygood (Very good indeed)

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I feel sad when I saw people saying how boring is their life. Life isn't boring at all. Life is full of adventures and surprises, you just need to find the right way to live it and explore it. Stop complaining how boring is your life, instead, find a way to change it.

Come on, learn something new, find some new interest, let something impresses you, open your mind and accept things. God gives you a brain and a body to learn and explore, not to stand in the same place to tell others how boring is your life. You choose your path, you choose your way to live. If you choose to stand on the same spot and complaining how dull is your life, you can choose to run away from the same spot. Life is unpredictable, you can get hurt if you run away, but you can create something magical too.

I saw a very interesting quote from a friend yesterday. 'When life gives you lemons, get a tequila and make margarita'. I believe this phase tells a message that I want to convey, which is another quote of mine: Don't live your life alone, live your life with others. Creating, is another wonder of living.

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30 Day Song Challenge - Day 13 - A Song That Is A Guilty Pleasure

Why it's a 'guilty pleasure' ? It's because personally I don't really like club music, but somehow this song is very rhythmic, very hot, very sexy, and it is perfect for salsa dances. I selected this song for my salsa dance and it worked really well.

101 Things To Do Before Graduate In Monash

2011-09-09T11:59:00.004+08:00

Monash University Sunway Campus is not a big university but there are many things that you can do before you graduate. That's for sure. Here's a list of 101 things you can do in Monash before graduate.

*Disclaimer: Some of these acts haven't been through trials yet, do it at your own risk =)

1. Skip a lecture

2. Skip a tutorial/lab session

3. Eating and drinking while having lecture

4. Sleep in the front row in the lecture

5. Fake some signature for your friends

6. Lost something valuable in the campus

7. Tries all food in cafeteria no matter how bad they are

8. Sleep in the library

9. Attend a lecture that you did not enrolled in

10. Having a party in the campus

11. Stay up very late in campus until the security guards ask you to leave

12. Stay over night in the campus

13. Finish your assignment few hours before the deadline

14. Literally run around the campus

15. Talk to someone you never talked to before

16. Smile to a stranger in Monash

17. Be in MUSA

18. Be a school representatative

19. Chat with Doctors and Professors

20. Attending Monash Annual Ball

21. Walk from the 1st floor to the 7th floor in building 3

22. Cheerleading in front of freshies and seniors

23. Stay in library until it close

24. Stay in library during the weekend

25. Join a club

26. Sitting on different spots in the same lecture for the whole semester

27. Kiss someone in the campus

28. Having shower in the staff lounge

29. Step on the grass even it is against the rule

30. Making out in a tutorial room

31. Use every toilets in the campus

32. Know every name of your course mates

33. Know every name of your lecturers

34. Say 'Hey' instead of 'Hi' or 'Good morning' or 'Good afternoon' to a doctor or a professor

35. Dine in the foyer

36. Do something in the Multifaith Center

37. Stay in Women's room

38. Use the library's photocopy machine

39. Climb a tree in Monash

40. Rock climbing

41. Counting how many hot girls/guys you see in a particular day

42. Submit assignments after the due dates

43. Jog around the car park

44. Perform something with presence of the audience

45. Participate in a cause or a campaign in Monash

46. Sleep on the bean bags in the library

47. Do something awful and turned famous

48. Walk out from a lecture and not returning

49. Spoil something in the campus

50. Have free food in the campus for the whole day

51. Fall in love crazily to someone

52. Vote for student's election

53. Becoming a Buddy

54. Have lunch with different person for 5 days in a week

55. Work on an experiment longer than 4 hours

56. Study in the sky bridge

57. Laugh out loud in the library

58. Submit your exam paper before the exam end

59. Having alcoholic drinks and lards in the campus

60. Go into the animal room

61. Facebooking and tweeting during lectures

62. Meet someone new

63. Cheat during quizzes

64. Swear in front of public

65. Finish a book that borrowed from the library on the same day you borrowing it

66. Playing games in the library

67. Stay in the guard house

68. Take photos around the campus

69. Pluck a flower in the campus and give it to someone you adore

70. Get a shot of yourself in the Monga Magazine

71. Order food delivery service to Monash and have the meal there

72. Throwing birthday party for your lecturer

73. Having a lecture prank

74. Arrive in campus before 7am

75. Joking around with your lecturers and tutors

76. Participating a summer research project

77. Be a one day soloist (Sit alone, dine alone, walk alone etc etc...)

78. Sing a song loudly in the cafeteria or the foyer

79. Wearing pajamas in the campus

80. Climb over the gate instead of walk through it

90. Recycle your paper if you accidentally misprinted your stuffs

91. Playing hide and seek in the campus

92. Lie on the grass

93. Having food fight in the cafeteria

94. Use the microphone in the lecture hall with the presence of your lecturer

95. Having coffee during the exam

96. Sit with a stranger in the cafeteria

97. Stay in the sick bay or Mother's room for at least once

98. Cry in the campus

99. Steal something from the campus (toilet papers, printing papers, chemicals...)

100. Learn some new skills

101. Getting good grades

Monashians can be really awesome indeed ...

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30 Day Song Challenge - Day 12 - A Song From A Band You Hate

Why bother listening to something that I hate ? So, I can't really come out with a video to share with. You can post a challenge to me if you want, and I shall post it in the next post.

I really don't know how to end a post like this, so... See you in the next post I guess.

'All In One' Post

2011-09-02T11:59:00.000+08:00

It's been so long since the last update, because I was pretty occupied last two weeks. What I completed last two weeks were two presentations, few assignments and reports, had some fun going out, and suffered intensively when I backed to my desk.

...hours and hours I sat in front of my laptop. What I did was ...

Start the music player...

...Open the assignment and relevant folder

Open Google Chrome...

...Facebook, switch songs, checking emails, blogspot, stalking

Scopus, my.monash, Google Books, pdf...

...Type a few words, end text citation

Facebook, switch songs, checking emails, blogspot, stalking...

...Grab my guitar, play a few riffs, put it back

Open the assignment and relevant folder...

....and repeat...

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I thought I suffered a lot, until my friend told me that he has 2 assignments that due on Monday and he didn't even started doing it yet, and it's already Friday today. And it excludes midterm exams, current and upcoming lab reports.

Yet, people suffers, just that what makes them suffers is different. Me ? Having 8 pages of experiment discussion to rush. The difficulty of it makes me suffer, the length it makes me suffer. A new guitar piece that I suppose to learn and play to my tutor on Sunday, I didn't even start looking at it yet. Quizzes and tests are coming, and I didn't even start my revisions yet. There's an upcoming cellular metabolism experiment that requires own designation of experiment, I didn't started the design yet. I love my university life, but I hate it when what I love turned to be my source of unhappiness.

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I am a very random person. I am a little bit crazy. I noticed that I change my favours and preferences sudden and quick, and these changes are usually drastic. However, still, there are something original that existed within this drastic changes. It's like a root of a tree or the ornithine carbon skeleton of citrulline. I like different things but I like things with classic touch. I don't like things because others like it, I like things because I like it. A beautiful thing that I like will always look beautiful no matter how, even I abandoned it for so long. It applies to everything I liked so far, including girls (the 'like' like, not the 'love' like). Anyway it's just a little something about me. This also explain why classic things caught me first before a modern or a popular one.

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And I am so happy that I successfully played 'He's A Pirate' without referring to sheet music. Sungha Jung is way better, I meant his technique, not his version. Ohww, the gratification when I successfully tab a song in guitar solo by myself, who can understand ? The key is lowered though, but it can be perfected with a capo. Here's the video...

Hmm, if only if I have better voice recording device and webcam.

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30 Days Song Challenge - Day 10 - A song from your favourite band

Coldplay, ACDC, Gun N' Roses, Queen, Evanescence, The Beatles, The Foo Fighters, Lifehouse, My Chemical Romance, The Fray, Maroon 5, Vertical Horizon, Oasis, The Corrs, Paramore etc etc... These are all the bands that should appear in a hardcore rock music lover, like me. All of them are my favourites, selecting one song from them to share here is quite tough. Still, I decided. 'Times Like These' by The Foo Fighters. The Foo Fighters is not so famous in main stream music, but what I admire about this band is the members, they are very versatile especially the front man Dave Grohl. He was the writer, the guitarist, the bassist, the drummer, the pianist the keyboardist when the band was formed before other members joined in. This is certainly one of the best song from them in my opinion. So, try this song, who knows you might like it.

The world is a sad and miserable place, but love makes you survive.

I love what I write.

Random Post

2011-08-13T11:59:00.000+08:00

I climbed my way up to this height,

to seek for a chance to say hi.

You never give me a chance to try,

you turn away without goodbyes.

Every time you look away,

every time you fake your gaze,

every time your eyes evade,

these are all the pain you gave.

Smile, I gave you still,

even I know you will never give me back.

Faith, it keeps you real,

even I know my heart will end up cracked.

Out of millions I found none,

because you're my only one.

I shall endure all the sores,

and to show you I'm yours.

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I got no life so far, because of the assignments and reports. I am too busy to share more now. I hate this feeling of stupidity.

30 Day Song Challenge - Day 9 - A song that makes you fall asleep.

This song has the magical effect of making me fall asleep, especially during the days in high school.

Too Shy To Say Hi

2011-08-07T11:59:00.001+08:00

I see you in the hallway,

I see you in the cafe,

I see you every single day,

We see us and we walk away.

All I need to do,

is let my best smile flies to you.

All you need to react,

is curve your lips and smile me back.

'Hi' is the word,

that connects our world.

'Hi' is the word,

that connects our hearts.

Our eyes ran away,

to somewhere else they gaze.

I wish I could greet you 'hi',

god damn I am just too shy.

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The end of week two. The start of everything else.

Gosh, the lab reports, assignments and quizzes are back! Many things need to be done before week five. I don't like big plans ahead of my life that aren't planned by myself. It makes me feel pressured. Still, whether I like it or not, this is the only way I can graduate. Frankly speaking, I don't know what to anticipate for in my second year in Monash.

Well, generally, all subjects in this semester are rely on memory work. Cellular metabolism is quite a heavy subject. I was working on the first lab report of cellular metabolism and it already killed me. Anatomy is an interesting subject but revision is purely based on how good is your memory. Same thing goes with Physiology of human health. SCI2010 is quite bored though. On the other hand, I hope JPA accept my request and allows me to participate Monash intercampus exchange program. I want to go to Clayton campus next semester. Please god, please JPA, send me there.

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I like quotations. Few days ago, I written something and I found that it was quite meaningful.

'Don't live your life alone. Live your life with others.'

This is quite similar with a Facebook status (which is also quoted from the picture) that I saw, coming with a very beautiful picture.

'Life is about the people you meet and the things you create with them.'

I like every words on that board, I like it a lot. Every words are simple, and true. That's what I like about quotations.

Living your life alone doesn't make your life interesting. Well, it can be, but it is way more interesting when you open your heart and open your eyes and share your world with others. Live your life with others. If everyone does that, it would be magical. I don't like to stuck in my own world, that's why I like many things and I keep on trying, so that I can experience others. Sometimes, it doesn't matter how breathtaking is the view, sometimes, what matters the most is who is the person who watches the view with you.

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30 Day Song Challenge - Day 9 - A song that you can dance to.

I can dance some basic cha-cha with this song. The first day when I learned Cha-Cha, I was hoping that someday I can dance with this song. Eventually I did. I also danced Rhumba with 'Penny Lover', Cha-Cha with 'Smooth' and currently I am doing Jive with one of my favourite dance song 'Mambo Number 5'. Dancing is fun, I wonder why some people don't like it.

The Feeling Where...

2011-07-22T18:10:00.001+08:00