2013年12月24日星期二

随写



又快一年了。

去年所发生的事,记忆犹新。其实说起来今年还过得蛮疯狂的。

首先,今年完成了许多自己一向来很想做的事情...

比如说去看演唱会。今年去看了好几个演唱会。美国乐团One Republic,韩国吉他天才Sungha Jung和苏格兰的Franz Ferdinand全都没有错过,逼近以前读书时错过的东西实在是太多了。

再比如说,今年和朋友有过两次road trip。一次是去停泊岛,一次是去槟岛。很久都没有和朋友去旅游了,直到今年。

再比如说,今年参与了大学的音乐剧,成了剧团的舞蹈员。我就是那个在演员唱歌演戏时在后面跳舞的那个。上台的时候感觉还蛮紧张的,因为到彩排的那天舞步都还没有记得。然而,表演还是算成功。这种经验算满新鲜的。

再比如说,今年再次参与了舞蹈社的表演。做梦也想不到自己会喜欢上跳舞。

再比如说,今年组了个小乐团,在大学里有过表演。表演不算很好,但是很开心自己把握了这些难得的机会。

再比如说,今年去了香港和澳门。之前想到出国旅行是一种奢侈。其实,旅行并不是奢侈,而是一种梦想。为了实现这个梦想,我逼了自己打了两个月多的工来赚旅游费。把大部分薪水花在这次的港澳游,我觉得很值得。

再比如说,今年成功结束大学生涯,顺顺利利地毕业了。参加毕业典礼的感觉怪怪的,又分欢喜,但就是不知道少了什么,因该是当时有点紧张吧。不过话说回来,这次倒有点可惜,因为时间的关系,典礼结束后错过了和course mate合照的机会。一生人就毕业那一次,到最后来还是错过了和朋友的毕业照。 

毕业了不久,我找到了一份工作。薪水其实是很不错,福利也差不多,就是工作性质我不太喜欢。我嘛,就是这么的宠爱自己,不喜欢的东西,再诱人也没用。不喜欢就是不喜欢。可我目前还没有选择。唉,其实能被聘请就该感恩了。

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Life is like a unsolved jigsaw puzzle. We look for the missing pieces everyday when we are 'moving on' with life. We look and look, and there are a lot of pieces that we are looking for. We have pieces like opportunities, we have wealth, we have love, we have friends, we have jobs and we have all sorts of pieces everywhere. We all know that it is not easy to find the right piece for our own puzzle, because there are just too much missing pieces and there are a lot of pieces that seems like fitting in but doesn't. We pick it up, we fit them in. If it doesn't fit in, we move one and look for another piece. It's is not an easy job to solve this big puzzle, it is a tedious job. Nonetheless, for the perfect masterpiece, finding the right puzzle piece for your life is definitely worthwhile. These pieces might seems very abstract. Yes, but you will know whether this piece is meant for you by how you feel about it.

I think I found the missing piece that belongs to me.

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30 Days Photo Challenge - Day 9 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most


She is my mum, do I need to say more? Love her and always will.

2013年12月1日星期日

The Paradox of Love


There are so many chances in life. Sometimes they can be very transient and sometimes they can be staying for very long. Sometimes, chances pretend like they are meant for you, but they are not. Sometimes, you might be surprised by those uninviting chances.

I talked to a friend recently. He told me that we should only fall for a person if we know him/her well enough. It's not a process that happens instantly. It's no Harry Potter magic.


I used to believe in what he said - true love takes time to happen...

...Which is somewhat true.

but...

A love that happens too fast is still love right?
Love isn't measured by how fast people fall for each other right?
A bridge is a bridge regardless how fast it is built. No?


I used to believe that love is a sacred thing...

...Which is still true.

but...

If love is really sacred, why do breakups and divorces happen?
Isn't it a responsibility to keep sacred things alive?


I used to believe that falling in love is difficult. It takes two compatible heart to fall in love, and it takes time to find a compatible heart....

...Which is indisputably true.

but...

Indisputably true? What if both of us fell easily in love?

How about love at first sight? It happens right?

If both never been through stumbles and obstacles, does it mean that the love isn't true?

What if one day I decided to find a compatible heart and it took me 1 hour to find it?

How can we be sure that that's the compatible heart?

How do we even know?


I used to believe that love is so sacred that the first person you fall for, or the first person you love, should be the person that going to be loved by you forever...

...I wish this can be a solid true but it's not.

but...

This is not a solid wrong too.
It's true because we shouldn't simply give our special love to everyone.
It explains love is sacred.

If love is sacred, why do we keep falling in for another one after we fell out from love?
It's not true because we do fall out from love.
Not every first love last forever.


I used to believe that we should let the stream leads us to where we belong, and if it belongs to you it will return....

but...

If you see a beautiful shore along the stream,
would you hop off from the stream to stay?

If you do choose to stay and you stayed forever,
isn't it violating the idea where faith has a plan for us?

If you do choose to stay and you stayed forever,
it's our choice to make it happened instead of faith. No?

If we see someone we love, we fight for the love that we deserve.
It's not faith but a choice. No?
If we succeed, isn't it violating the idea where faith has a plan for us?


...What a beautiful paradox of love.

"Love is hard" - James Morrison

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I don't know which is true anymore because I think there is no true or false in this.
Life was supposed to be simple.

I see the things we want in life, I fight for them.

We see love, we fight for love.

I see you, I choose to fight for you.

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30 Days Photo Challenge - Day 8 - A Picture That Makes You Laugh


The missing person in the photo was JY. He is coming back soon anyway. End of story. We've miss him enough.