2011年12月10日星期六

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考完试了满久,但是始终没有feel想更新。和我熟的都知道周某我很需要feel来生活。其中也因为考完试后生活还蛮精彩的。首先是吃了很多好吃的食物。烤猪排骨,烤三层肉,进口猪肉。然后又去Chili's吃墨西哥餐。那个Fajitas的香味,到现在味蕾隐隐约约都还感觉到那阵香味。人家说吃很重要,也是一种享受。其实不只是这样,吃了一些好料,一切考试期间带来的郁闷和不快,一瞬间全都消失了。

考完试后回想起来,这个学期是很忙,但是我很享受。其实我还嫌这个学期过的太快了。今天就和阿Foo聊天聊到大学生活,结果才发现到我对自己在大学里的生活的记忆其实还蛮模糊的。怎么说呢?生活千篇一律,但偶尔会有很多趣事发生,有时还有惊喜。至于一些小细节和人物却不太记得了。那种感觉就像吃了冰淇淋的失忆症病人:嘴唇是很甜,喉咙不时传来阵阵香味,但就是想不起自己吃了什么...

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话说周某考完试了正在放假。其假期很短,才休息不久就开始进行短期的医院实习。我呆的那间医院啊,太乏味了。首先是那里的职员都不够专业,当然也不是全部。他们工作时不穿白袍,处理血液不穿手套。然后他们也不主动教我东西,也不太理睬我。而且沟通语言不同也是一个障碍。在那里我也学不到东西,算得来其实还很浪费时间。反正我不想呆在那里就是了。

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我要去澳洲。我要去看Uluru巨石。我要去看沙漠。我要看袋鼠。我要看树熊。我要看悉尼,我要看墨尔本。我要看黄金海岸。我要看大堡礁。我要看澳洲的大学。我要泡泡澳洲的美女。我要晒晒澳洲的太阳。我要喝喝澳洲的啤酒。我要吹吹澳洲的风。我要去澳洲。

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我喜欢你,你也喜欢我,我们一起fall in love吧。

以上那句话不完全是真的。相爱可以很简单,但是往往被周边很多避免不了的因素导致相爱变得很复杂。

有时,我喜欢你,你不喜欢我。

有时我喜欢你,你不喜欢我。

有时我喜欢你,你喜欢我,我们不能在一起。

但我喜欢你,你一定不能怪我。被人家喜欢,也不能怪人。这是基本规则。

有时还蛮同情受害者。

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30 Day Song Challenge - Day 15 - A song that describes you


I was considering 'Superman' by Five For Fighting, but some how this is better. I want to be a better man.

2011年11月14日星期一

PEP - 'Post Exam Post' and not 'Phosphoenolpyruvate'

DISCLAIMER: THIS IS A VERY CONFUSING POST. I TRIED TO CONVEY WHAT I FEEL AND I DON'T THINK I DID A GOOD JOB THIS TIME. SO READERS, DON'T JUDGE IT.

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Exam was over.

Strange enough, when I finish my last paper, I did not feel a least bit of gratification. Finishing exam, just bringing me closer to goodbyes. I hate goodbyes.

I even use any possible excuse to stay in campus, even my exam was over. Weird I know. I don't want to leave. Frankly, this semester was too short. This marked the half of my undergraduate life.

The moment I submitted my exchange application, I knew that I am so gonna miss a lot of things and action here in campus. Well it is just one semester. But many things can happen in one semester and I don't wanna miss it all. I will miss friends and family, I will miss many familiar faces, I will miss dancing...

Ahh, I want to run away. Lets face it, I know the day will come eventually.

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I had a very good time in these few days. First, exam was over. I did feel relieved but it was not as awesome as I expected. Still, after exam we (Anson Jeffrey Yin Xian Eva Alina Yi Zheng Ah Chen Wendy and I) visited Yin Xian's house, ate Bak Kut Teh in Klang, ate some delicious food that looted from night market and spent a good evening talking about nonsense. Saying goodbye for that night was simple, and hard.

The next post-exam celebration spot was 1U. We had Chilis there and the Fajitas was AWESOME. And I grabbed two turtlenecks and a lattice patterned T-Shirt, unbelievable.

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Despite my struggle on deciding whether to go for exchange, I do want to fulfill my dream of study abroad. I want to feel something I never feel before. I want to experience new thing. This could be a golden chance.

I hate having multiple feelings at one time.

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30 Days Song Challenge - Day 14 - A Song That No One Would Expect You To Love


Surprised ? Personally I am not really a fan of trendy music but this song is just so catchy.

2011年10月24日星期一

Climax 2.0

Climax - A period of time where all the big name assignments, quizzes and lab reports clumped together and the due date for all these fall within the same week and due dates are only 1 to 2 days apart. Usually, students in this climax period will suffer from heavy insomnia, stress, hormone imbalance, disruption of circadian rhythm and loss of body weight if stress persisted. Adapted from here

I have 1 week to study before final exam and just 2 days before the final week, I had a physiology lab report, a literature review, and a cellular metabolism lab report that got to due in 1 week time. So that week was like hell. Well, at least all the assignments and reports for my first semester were done. I have no time to regret or worry about the grades of these past assignments and quizzes.

I have exactly 1 week to study everything in this semester before the final exam commences.

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It's been a long time since the last time I update my blog. For those who anticipates my post, I am sorry. I was too busy to update my blog.

I did quite some stuffs during the M.I.A month. The highlight was that I participated the Dance & Dinner party that organized by Monash Dance Fushion Club. They certainly made me wanna dance more. So my tasks were to compete with other dancers in social class and to perform a self choreographed salsa dance with my partner and perform it on stage. It was a really cool experience and finally I knew how difficult it is to choreograph a dance. I like my dance a lot regardless the techniques and precision.

My favourite scene

Other than that, I went to had a appreciation dinner for my Cellular Metabolism lab demonstrator Yan Qi. She demands exceptional qualities in our lab report but I failed her every time, I guess. Nonetheless, we did enjoyed the dinner. It was the best pork rib that I had so far. The durian dessert was heaven like. It's pointless that I keep describing how nice it was, you should try it yourself. Restorant: Bellygood (Very good indeed)

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I feel sad when I saw people saying how boring is their life. Life isn't boring at all. Life is full of adventures and surprises, you just need to find the right way to live it and explore it. Stop complaining how boring is your life, instead, find a way to change it.
Come on, learn something new, find some new interest, let something impresses you, open your mind and accept things. God gives you a brain and a body to learn and explore, not to stand in the same place to tell others how boring is your life. You choose your path, you choose your way to live. If you choose to stand on the same spot and complaining how dull is your life, you can choose to run away from the same spot. Life is unpredictable, you can get hurt if you run away, but you can create something magical too.

I saw a very interesting quote from a friend yesterday. 'When life gives you lemons, get a tequila and make margarita'. I believe this phase tells a message that I want to convey, which is another quote of mine: Don't live your life alone, live your life with others. Creating, is another wonder of living.

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30 Day Song Challenge - Day 13 - A Song That Is A Guilty Pleasure


Why it's a 'guilty pleasure' ? It's because personally I don't really like club music, but somehow this song is very rhythmic, very hot, very sexy, and it is perfect for salsa dances. I selected this song for my salsa dance and it worked really well.

2011年9月9日星期五

101 Things To Do Before Graduate In Monash

Monash University Sunway Campus is not a big university but there are many things that you can do before you graduate. That's for sure. Here's a list of 101 things you can do in Monash before graduate.

*Disclaimer: Some of these acts haven't been through trials yet, do it at your own risk =)

1. Skip a lecture
2. Skip a tutorial/lab session
3. Eating and drinking while having lecture
4. Sleep in the front row in the lecture
5. Fake some signature for your friends
6. Lost something valuable in the campus
7. Tries all food in cafeteria no matter how bad they are
8. Sleep in the library
9. Attend a lecture that you did not enrolled in
10. Having a party in the campus
11. Stay up very late in campus until the security guards ask you to leave
12. Stay over night in the campus
13. Finish your assignment few hours before the deadline
14. Literally run around the campus
15. Talk to someone you never talked to before
16. Smile to a stranger in Monash
17. Be in MUSA
18. Be a school representatative
19. Chat with Doctors and Professors
20. Attending Monash Annual Ball
21. Walk from the 1st floor to the 7th floor in building 3
22. Cheerleading in front of freshies and seniors
23. Stay in library until it close
24. Stay in library during the weekend
25. Join a club
26. Sitting on different spots in the same lecture for the whole semester
27. Kiss someone in the campus
28. Having shower in the staff lounge
29. Step on the grass even it is against the rule
30. Making out in a tutorial room
31. Use every toilets in the campus
32. Know every name of your course mates
33. Know every name of your lecturers
34. Say 'Hey' instead of 'Hi' or 'Good morning' or 'Good afternoon' to a doctor or a professor
35. Dine in the foyer
36. Do something in the Multifaith Center
37. Stay in Women's room
38. Use the library's photocopy machine
39. Climb a tree in Monash
40. Rock climbing
41. Counting how many hot girls/guys you see in a particular day
42. Submit assignments after the due dates
43. Jog around the car park
44. Perform something with presence of the audience
45. Participate in a cause or a campaign in Monash
46. Sleep on the bean bags in the library
47. Do something awful and turned famous
48. Walk out from a lecture and not returning
49. Spoil something in the campus
50. Have free food in the campus for the whole day
51. Fall in love crazily to someone
52. Vote for student's election
53. Becoming a Buddy
54. Have lunch with different person for 5 days in a week
55. Work on an experiment longer than 4 hours
56. Study in the sky bridge
57. Laugh out loud in the library
58. Submit your exam paper before the exam end
59. Having alcoholic drinks and lards in the campus
60. Go into the animal room
61. Facebooking and tweeting during lectures
62. Meet someone new
63. Cheat during quizzes
64. Swear in front of public
65. Finish a book that borrowed from the library on the same day you borrowing it
66. Playing games in the library
67. Stay in the guard house
68. Take photos around the campus
69. Pluck a flower in the campus and give it to someone you adore
70. Get a shot of yourself in the Monga Magazine
71. Order food delivery service to Monash and have the meal there
72. Throwing birthday party for your lecturer
73. Having a lecture prank
74. Arrive in campus before 7am
75. Joking around with your lecturers and tutors
76. Participating a summer research project
77. Be a one day soloist (Sit alone, dine alone, walk alone etc etc...)
78. Sing a song loudly in the cafeteria or the foyer
79. Wearing pajamas in the campus
80. Climb over the gate instead of walk through it
90. Recycle your paper if you accidentally misprinted your stuffs
91. Playing hide and seek in the campus
92. Lie on the grass
93. Having food fight in the cafeteria
94. Use the microphone in the lecture hall with the presence of your lecturer
95. Having coffee during the exam
96. Sit with a stranger in the cafeteria
97. Stay in the sick bay or Mother's room for at least once
98. Cry in the campus
99. Steal something from the campus (toilet papers, printing papers, chemicals...)
100. Learn some new skills
101. Getting good grades

Monashians can be really awesome indeed ...

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30 Day Song Challenge - Day 12 - A Song From A Band You Hate

Why bother listening to something that I hate ? So, I can't really come out with a video to share with. You can post a challenge to me if you want, and I shall post it in the next post.

I really don't know how to end a post like this, so... See you in the next post I guess.

2011年9月2日星期五

'All In One' Post

It's been so long since the last update, because I was pretty occupied last two weeks. What I completed last two weeks were two presentations, few assignments and reports, had some fun going out, and suffered intensively when I backed to my desk.

...hours and hours I sat in front of my laptop. What I did was ...

Start the music player...

...Open the assignment and relevant folder

Open Google Chrome...

...Facebook, switch songs, checking emails, blogspot, stalking

Scopus, my.monash, Google Books, pdf...

...Type a few words, end text citation

Facebook, switch songs, checking emails, blogspot, stalking...

...Grab my guitar, play a few riffs, put it back

Open the assignment and relevant folder...


....and repeat...

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I thought I suffered a lot, until my friend told me that he has 2 assignments that due on Monday and he didn't even started doing it yet, and it's already Friday today. And it excludes midterm exams, current and upcoming lab reports.

Yet, people suffers, just that what makes them suffers is different. Me ? Having 8 pages of experiment discussion to rush. The difficulty of it makes me suffer, the length it makes me suffer. A new guitar piece that I suppose to learn and play to my tutor on Sunday, I didn't even start looking at it yet. Quizzes and tests are coming, and I didn't even start my revisions yet. There's an upcoming cellular metabolism experiment that requires own designation of experiment, I didn't started the design yet. I love my university life, but I hate it when what I love turned to be my source of unhappiness.

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I am a very random person. I am a little bit crazy. I noticed that I change my favours and preferences sudden and quick, and these changes are usually drastic. However, still, there are something original that existed within this drastic changes. It's like a root of a tree or the ornithine carbon skeleton of citrulline. I like different things but I like things with classic touch. I don't like things because others like it, I like things because I like it. A beautiful thing that I like will always look beautiful no matter how, even I abandoned it for so long. It applies to everything I liked so far, including girls (the 'like' like, not the 'love' like). Anyway it's just a little something about me. This also explain why classic things caught me first before a modern or a popular one.

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And I am so happy that I successfully played 'He's A Pirate' without referring to sheet music. Sungha Jung is way better, I meant his technique, not his version. Ohww, the gratification when I successfully tab a song in guitar solo by myself, who can understand ? The key is lowered though, but it can be perfected with a capo. Here's the video...


Hmm, if only if I have better voice recording device and webcam.

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30 Days Song Challenge - Day 10 - A song from your favourite band

Coldplay, ACDC, Gun N' Roses, Queen, Evanescence, The Beatles, The Foo Fighters, Lifehouse, My Chemical Romance, The Fray, Maroon 5, Vertical Horizon, Oasis, The Corrs, Paramore etc etc... These are all the bands that should appear in a hardcore rock music lover, like me. All of them are my favourites, selecting one song from them to share here is quite tough. Still, I decided. 'Times Like These' by The Foo Fighters. The Foo Fighters is not so famous in main stream music, but what I admire about this band is the members, they are very versatile especially the front man Dave Grohl. He was the writer, the guitarist, the bassist, the drummer, the pianist the keyboardist when the band was formed before other members joined in. This is certainly one of the best song from them in my opinion. So, try this song, who knows you might like it.


The world is a sad and miserable place, but love makes you survive.

I love what I write.

2011年8月13日星期六

Random Post

I climbed my way up to this height,
to seek for a chance to say hi.
You never give me a chance to try,
you turn away without goodbyes.

Every time you look away,
every time you fake your gaze,
every time your eyes evade,
these are all the pain you gave.

Smile, I gave you still,
even I know you will never give me back.
Faith, it keeps you real,
even I know my heart will end up cracked.

Out of millions I found none,
because you're my only one.
I shall endure all the sores,
and to show you I'm yours.

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I got no life so far, because of the assignments and reports. I am too busy to share more now. I hate this feeling of stupidity.

30 Day Song Challenge - Day 9 - A song that makes you fall asleep.


This song has the magical effect of making me fall asleep, especially during the days in high school.

2011年8月7日星期日

Too Shy To Say Hi

I see you in the hallway,
I see you in the cafe,
I see you every single day,
We see us and we walk away.

All I need to do,
is let my best smile flies to you.
All you need to react,
is curve your lips and smile me back.

'Hi' is the word,
that connects our world.
'Hi' is the word,
that connects our hearts.

Our eyes ran away,
to somewhere else they gaze.
I wish I could greet you 'hi',
god damn I am just too shy.

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The end of week two. The start of everything else.

Gosh, the lab reports, assignments and quizzes are back! Many things need to be done before week five. I don't like big plans ahead of my life that aren't planned by myself. It makes me feel pressured. Still, whether I like it or not, this is the only way I can graduate. Frankly speaking, I don't know what to anticipate for in my second year in Monash.

Well, generally, all subjects in this semester are rely on memory work. Cellular metabolism is quite a heavy subject. I was working on the first lab report of cellular metabolism and it already killed me. Anatomy is an interesting subject but revision is purely based on how good is your memory. Same thing goes with Physiology of human health. SCI2010 is quite bored though. On the other hand, I hope JPA accept my request and allows me to participate Monash intercampus exchange program. I want to go to Clayton campus next semester. Please god, please JPA, send me there.

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I like quotations. Few days ago, I written something and I found that it was quite meaningful.

'Don't live your life alone. Live your life with others.'

This is quite similar with a Facebook status (which is also quoted from the picture) that I saw, coming with a very beautiful picture.

'Life is about the people you meet and the things you create with them.'

I like every words on that board, I like it a lot. Every words are simple, and true. That's what I like about quotations.

Living your life alone doesn't make your life interesting. Well, it can be, but it is way more interesting when you open your heart and open your eyes and share your world with others. Live your life with others. If everyone does that, it would be magical. I don't like to stuck in my own world, that's why I like many things and I keep on trying, so that I can experience others. Sometimes, it doesn't matter how breathtaking is the view, sometimes, what matters the most is who is the person who watches the view with you.

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30 Day Song Challenge - Day 9 - A song that you can dance to.


I can dance some basic cha-cha with this song. The first day when I learned Cha-Cha, I was hoping that someday I can dance with this song. Eventually I did. I also danced Rhumba with 'Penny Lover', Cha-Cha with 'Smooth' and currently I am doing Jive with one of my favourite dance song 'Mambo Number 5'. Dancing is fun, I wonder why some people don't like it.

2011年7月22日星期五

The Feeling Where...

The feeling that I felt when...
I had a very cool and satisfying Friday.

The feeling that I felt when...
I never expect we are gonna win anything but we did.

The feeling that I felt when...
I shouted very loud until I lost my voice.

The feeling that I felt when...
I was being a funny cheerleader in front of many people and some recognized me afterwards.

The feeling that I felt when...
I literally ate something that catered by Monash that almost makes me puke and still I forced myself to finish it.

The feeling that I felt when...
I slept for two hours or so with weird dreams at night and wake up very early for an energy consuming telematch from morning to noon and without any breaks, continue with 2 hours of dance class in the evening before walking home.

The feeling that I felt when...
I have four 8a.m. lectures from Monday to Thursday in this semester.

The feeling that I felt when...
I have a very crappy timetable but the timetable is way better than others.

The feeling that I felt when...
I am extremely reluctant to start a new semester.

The feeling that I felt when...
I am extremely reluctant to say goodbye to my old friends that will leave me and study abroad for very long.

The feeling that I felt when...
I forget what am I gonna do but I can't remember it.

The feeling that I felt when...
I am imitated by someone who always imitates the others and I am irritated.

The feeling that I felt when...
I am suffocated because I don't have enough space and distance for myself, including the minimal space for you to stretch your arms.

The feeling that I felt when...
I am told that our chief Buddy (2 times best chief Buddy award winner) might not wanna be a buddy anyore.

The feeling that I felt when...
I forgot the cha-cha steps and made many funny mistakes and LOL in a dance class.

The feeling that I felt when....
I am again, experienced another clueless coincidence.

The feeling that I felt when...
I saw pretty chicks smiling at me and it makes me perspire.

The feeling that I felt when...
I am wanting something so badly and working hard on it and knowing the results cannot be guaranteed.

The feeling that I felt when...
I see my favourite electric guitar and my heartbeats.

The feeling that I felt when...
I watched Harry Potter Finale and Transformer before semester starts.

The feeling that I felt when...
I failed to sleep well again and again.

The feeling that I felt when...
I wonder whether should I go for School Representative's election in the campus.

The feeling that I felt when...
I broke my mummy's heart accidentally.

The feeling that I felt when...
I miss my brother and my grandmother.

The feeling that I felt when...
I wrote this post.

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30 Day Song Challenge - Day 8 - A song that you know all the words to.

Is the 'words' referring to the 'lyric' ? If it does, then the song I wanted to post is:


and...


Enjoy...

2011年7月18日星期一

I Couldn't Sleep

It's 5a.m. in the morning. I was lying on the bed, with the same posture, looking at the same ceiling, thinking about the same thing, exactly like what happened on the day right before the exam. Chaos was the state of my mind, neurons hustled back and forth, generating miseries and brewing emotions. It's not easy to be strong. I couldn't sleep.

Men can never get enough for themselves and they know what they want or what the thing that went missing.

One day, I realized something's I missed something very important. Something that I heard of and rarely experienced it personally by myself. It's something very special and priceless that you have to find it yourself.

I don't want to live with regrets. I want it to colour my life. But I don't know how to find it. I had missed too much chances and lost too much thing in my life so far, I can't afford to lost more.

The worse case of insomnia is that you are exhausted mentally and physically yet you can't even close your eyes when you are lying on your bed. Sometimes it's not that I don't want to sleep early. Knowing that I can't get a good sleep (because I always think of nonsense before I sleep, not to mention some sad dreams and frequent nightmares recently), eventually I lost my guts just to sleep. That's why I never sleep on schedule anymore, I sleep when I am really really tired.

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30 Day Song Challenge - Day 7 - The song that reminds me of an event.


Original singer is from Five For Fighting. Boyce Avenue did a very good cover. That's why I say electric guitar can be very sexy. I choose this song to reminds me of some unpleasant events that happened on me and I don't think I need to share it here. I love the phrase 'Even heroes have the right to bleed'.

Speaking of which...

Which colour would you choose given all other specs are equal ?

2011年7月11日星期一

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成绩出了,全部都是差一点点就...

蝴蝶效应一点都没有错。可能因为少读一面笔记,少上一堂课,少些一些答案,结果就连贯性地影响考试的状态,之后就影响总成绩。失去的分数都可能是因为quiz啊assignment做得不够好之类的。然后这些丢掉的分数堆下堆下就累计成更多大考的分数被丢掉。雪球效应啊!

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有些东西真的很难去控制。做不到就是做不到,不习惯就是不习惯。

这次假期的时间实在是太短了。连和朋友去gathering玩玩的机会也没有。不到两个月内全部人又再次分开。一个两个全部都将飞到几千公里外,一飞就是飞三两年。有时不是自己不想去gather,而是要躲开gather之后的emo。其实是很郁闷一下的。

前阵子很多我的朋友都满emo
的,都是因为感情和朋友的问题。然后基于他们emo带来的震波搞到我喜欢上剧情片和爱情片。结果在朋友介绍之下看了一套很不错的爱情片:500 Days Of Summer。本来以为剧情会很闷,结果是自己低估了这部电影。这部电影周某举起双手拇指强力推介。

故事是讲述一个男生喜欢上一个不相信爱情的女生。结果女生某一天相信了爱情但是却喜欢上另一个男生,还结了婚。故事是很简单,很老掉牙,但故事带来的讯息真的很有意思。感觉真的很重要,因为感觉让你知道你是否真的喜欢某某人,或者是某某人是否喜欢你。没有感觉,再多的强迫和改变也可能只带来更多的伤害。

之前的帖子留言有网友提到:People fall in love with somebody without a reason too.

这个'Without the reason'很可能就是感觉。

如果说一个人觉得孤单寂寞会减寿的话,我早就已经投了几胎,呵呵。

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最近发现到很多好歌,前几天有一段时间只是无所事事地在电脑的主页玩滑鼠,然后耳机里播着精选好歌,什么都没有做。也不知道为什么,自己也喜欢上爵士音乐。有位朋友说的好:你可以不喜欢某种音乐,但是你不可以不喜欢音乐。

还有,我物色到了一把电吉他。价钱合理,也在预算里面。这个是下一个目标。电话可以不要换,电脑可以不要修,吉他不可不要买。
我要叫他“小黑”。

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30 Day Song Challenge - Day 6 - A song that reminds you of somewhere


Penny Lover给我想到的就是Monash Audi 2,这首歌是我第一次跳伦巴的歌。Audi 2 就是表演的地方。第一次的经验,要忘记也很难。

2011年7月3日星期日

Another Story About Frog

There's a cardiac arrest-inducing prank that performed by the frogs that locate around my house during the rainy days - they like to stay overnight inside my shoes.

(There's a frog in my boots. LOL)

I still remember the reaction I got when I found a frog in my shoe for the first time. It was a school day, in the morning, around 7a.m, few years back. As usual, I put my foot into the shoe and my foot felt something very odd because it's like the size of the shoe had shrunk, not to mention the disgustingly cold and jelly-like sensation that felt by my foot. As a response, I took off my shoe and check it out. I yelled so loud as I was given the last chance to yell out loud before god take my voice away. And that wakes my family members up. It happened on me for countless times in my high school life.

After that incident, every time when I am going to wear some shoes, I will ask my brother to inspect the shoe for frogs before I wear them.

So yesterday night I was wearing my sport shoes and I left foot felt very uncomfortable, it was the exact 'the-shoe-size-is-shrunk' feeling. Somewhere in my brain told me that be prepared, because there might be a stupid frog in my shoe. But still, I am too scared to check it out myself, so I asked my friend. And he pick up my shoe, look into it, and...


'Doink' (Of course it's just the sound effect...)


A black coloured toad jump out from my shoe. I was like 2 meters away from the frog and I screamed out very loud.

Look, I've not placing any of my shoes at home for like 2 years already yet the frogs are still remembering the scent of my feet, so as my shoes. I really don't understand why the frogs and toads like my shoes so much. They never stay in my brother's or my dad's shoes before. They only stay in my shoes. Only my shoes.

Seriously, I don't like frogs sleeping in my shoes.

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30 Day Song Challenge - Day 5 - A song that reminds you of someone.


I think no other songs suit the title better than this. I like many phrases from the lyric of this song.

'There's just too much the time cannot erase.'

2011年7月1日星期五

Changing

Sometimes people hates you because of:

1. No reason. (Yes, people like this still exist)

2. You annoyed him/her.

3. Genetics.

4. You have a disease that can make everyone ill.

5. You kill his/her family.

6. You killed his/her pet.

7. The world is gonna end.

8. You, because you are being you.

9. He/She is misanthropic, he/she hates everyone.

10. You hate them first.

Sometimes it happens. People hates you. You are not born to be loved or trusted by everyone, it requires time and indirect self-promotion: why you deserve the trust and love from people. Even so, people might still hate you. This is how the world works.

Two things have to change for not being hate by someone:

1. You
2. The one who hates you

Changing yourself is hard, change the person who hates you is harder.

But always try to keep one thing in mine: always trust your instincts and always ask yourself what did you do wrong. Trusting yourself and asking yourself is helpful in REMINDING you that you are changing.

I don't believe hatred can be last forever. People changes to be better.

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Recently I've been listening to some rock music, just like what I did when I was in high school. Red Hot Chili Peppers, Foo Fighters, My Chemical Romance, The Killers, Oasis, Muse, etc etc... I find that vintage electric guitars are really cool. I am so gonna save up some money to buy one. So here's the 5 guitars with reasonable price that I found. Pretty babes aren't they ? Not to mention how nice is the tone yet. I almost salivate when I saw them. Makes me think of Pavlov's experiment on classical conditioning.

Gibson Les Paul Studio Pro Faded Worn Cherry
Gibson Les Paul Studio Faded Worn Cherry
Gibson Les Paul Studio 60's Tribute Goldtop
Gibson Les Paul Raw Power Goldtop
Gibson Les Paul Junior Satin Cherry

Ohhwww, they are just so pretty aren't they ? Birthday present, Christmas Present, or Graduation present ? We shall see, how much god loves me or how much I love myself. Getting myself one of these babes is one of the thing to be done to fulfill my life. Which one is nicer ?

If only if I can get one of these...

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30 Day Song Challenge - Day 4 - A Song That Makes You Sad



You're My Everything by Santa Esmeraida. I think this song does make me sad when I listen to it. Mainly because of the lyric and tone of this song. This is quite a song for Rhumba dance too. Feel free to sadden yourself with this song.

Music has a genre, has its key, has its beat, has its tone, has its story, but music doesn't has an age.

2011年6月25日星期六

The Imperfection

The eyes of you are glistening,
like the bright stars in the evening sky.

The eyes of you are too, captivating,
like the lovely moon in a starry night.

The lips of you are rosy and pouty,
way lot better than Knightley's and Jolie's

The ponytail of you is mesmerizing,
the side swept fringe of you is hypnotizing.

The smile of you is anomalously sweet,
beyond syrup, honey and Hershey's Kiss.

The exquisiteness of you is ineffable,
the pulchritudinous of you is inexpressible.

The ambrosial features of yours combine,
take my breath away when you're nearby.

Perfection is what it seems,
imperfection lies within.

What is the flaw you might ask,
I can see us but you can't.

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Relax everyone, it's just some random verse that I try to write when I am free, words and phrases just pop out every time I am exposed to certain stimuli. Thanks to a friend of mine who influenced me to write phrases and verses.

So here I am. Not really having those typical 'Post Exam Excitement'. In fact there are not much differences compare to those days before the exam starts. The only difference is that I do not need glue my poor eyes on notes and texts. Other than that, everything else remained the same. I am still staying up late, I am still having insomnia when I attempted to sleep early, I am still worrying about many things, I am still thinking too much about nonsense. I am lifeless, and I don't want to be lifeless.

I don't like myself of thinking and worrying too much, really. It's really disturbing when some stupid thoughts about stupid stuffs pop out in your brain you are free. The sad thing is that I am unable to control myself from worrying too much. Sometimes I really wish that I can temporarily blank my mind from everything except basic metabolic functions so that I can be free of worrying about stuffs. Luckily I found three things that can take me away from the real world: Sports, dancing and playing my guitars. I feel very secured when I am doing these activities.

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30 Day Song Challenge - Day 3 - A Song That Makes You Happy



It's quite tough to decide between this song and the Glee's version of 'Over The Rainbow'. But still I decided to put this, since the title itself already makes me feel very good, not mentioning the funky beats of this song yet. This song is really cheerful and it makes me smile in the heart every time I listen to it. Do enjoy it.

2011年6月22日星期三

开始的结束

开始的结束:换句话说就是大学第一年的结束。周某不再是大学新鲜人了。

真该死,这个学期挨生挨死,换来只不过是两个星期的假期。气还没喘过来已经有莫名的恐惧渗透神经了。想到下学期的Report和Assignment背后突然间凉凉的。

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“耶!今天考完试咯!飞啊飞啊飞啊!”

早两三年可能我会有这种想法,考完试后其它的都是假的。

考完试之后就吃了一餐好的,然后买了一杯Starbucks的Frap Frap宠宠自己。


Frap Frap - Frappuccino

现在嘛?考完试没有什么特别,也没有很特别轻松,也没有什么计划,只是想休息一下就好了。结果吃完晚餐后回到家就一直弹吉他,弹了至少一个小时。心里什么也没有想,脑袋是空的。就很像电影里的英雄经历了涟漪之后满身伤却很冷静地喝酒那样。

再加上最近迷上了一首歌。歌词是很普通,但是我很喜欢吉他的旋律。我也在facebook山链接了至少三次。

噹噹噹!是Train的Marry Me...



听了之后我就不停的把那个旋律弹出来。对不起,实在是太好听了,不能自己。你们得空就欣赏一下啦。

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考试时最糟糕的情况不是遇到难题,而是开始前几分钟发现到钱包不见。听起来是不是很刺激?对,就是这么刺激。

前几天才跟朋友讲到以后的某一天我要跟我的孙子们讲他们的阿公是没有不见过钱包的。结果昨天在考试前要拿学生证时才发现钱包不见了。当时内心很他X的着急,根本无法专心考试。考试时一直想着万一被坏人捡掉的话怎么办。

心里也想:

.........好吧,速战速绝,尽量飞,一个小时做完它,反正Bio很难肥佬的。不飞的话,捡到的人可能在一个小时内解决掉我户口的存款。户口被解决掉的话,到时不小心肥佬掉都没有钱重考。

.........快快飞完,然后去MUSA Lounge找找。没有就要报警了。

.........警局在Taipan。

(手拿这笔,头一直摇...)

.........拜托,不要拿掉ATM卡,拿钱包里面的钱就好。

(五分钟后,眼睛第N次重读同样的题目...)

.........五天内可以不可以搞定IC和ATM卡?里面还有什么重要的吗?驾照怎么办?

心里很乱,考场又很冷。结果在种种压力下我成功在一个小时多内飞完那张考卷(也托Senior的福,她给的Past Year非常有帮助...)然后以小跑的速度跑去MUSA Lounge问问。半路时电话响了,被通知说我的钱包被熟人的朋友找到了,叫我去领取。

大一最后的考试真的很“草草”就结束了。为了找钱包,连答案也不检查。这种精神折磨一点也不好玩。我也不知道自己犯了什么错惹到老天爷在我考试前开这种玩笑,搞到考试后也要飚冷汗。

至于考到如何嘛,考了就算了,其他的就由命吧。

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30 Day Song Challenge - Day 2 - Your Least Favourite Song



我很讨厌很讨厌这首歌。没有很好听的歌声,没有很好听的旋律,没有很特别的歌词,没有头没有尾。噪音污染。一文不值。很烂很烂。

不是least favourite,而是the song that I hate the most。

2011年6月17日星期五

随写

心痛会有多痛?


很久之前真的很好奇,心碎时心痛,会有多痛?


心痛,可以把你在最强烈的麻醉下痛醒。


心痛,让你觉得你吸进的每一口气都带着刺荆。


现在我知道心痛,是很痛的...


我知道事实,可我不想知道答案,因为知道答案会很痛...


我的心很痛。


(哎,你们不要想太多,读读就好...

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最近这两年的考试前都有事情发生,生小病啊,失眠等等。今年发生的事比较残酷,事情虽小,但是带来的打击可不小,导致我连续几晚都没有睡觉。其中两个考试的前夕是真的完全通宵。救我,我忘了如何睡觉。


不只是这样,痛苦的是那些要读的东西多的要死。我算过了,如果把这个学期的笔记磨成粉档咖啡粉泡来喝的话,以每天两杯的频率来和的话至少要喝三四个月才能喝完。如果说笔记磨成粉泡来喝了就会记得,那么我干脆泡来喝掉算了。备要点的过程真的很要命。


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这个世界真的是太美丽了。不只是大自然美,也不只是有帅哥美女,而是有很多很多的知识,每一门都是由前辈累计下来的。更美的东西是巧合。前几天复习心理学时,其中有读到一篇文章,解释说世上很多事情就是那么巧,只是巧合频率太高时,正常人会把巧合当成是某种被操纵的因素。可惜很多人不相信巧合。


太深了,我的额头也闷得飙汗。


现在已经二十岁了,还有很多东西都还没完成呢,书页还没读完,但是脑子里已经把白日梦里的大纲翻译成计划了。


在我有生之年,我很想要完成几样东西:


(一)旅行。没有多大要求,没有说要环游世界,没有说要把我的足迹步遍全球每个角落,没有说一定要法国西班牙美国。不要旅行团,只跟自己另一半,没有目标,尝试即兴的路途和日程。即兴,是一种生活方式。


(二)吉他。收集很多多吉他。吉他的结构太美了。有些甚至物价,因为有些吉他全世界只有几把。你不需要懂得玩吉他才看到吉他的美。就像人一样,每把吉他都不同。可惜不太实际,因为能被用来收集的吉他价钱不菲。十把复古的吉他的价钱就可以买一件半独立式的房子了。再看吧,说不定会中马票。








是很美嘛?这五把的价钱购买一辆国产车了...


(三)咖啡。不只是要懂得喝。咖啡从买到泡到喝都是一门知识,可惜我就是还没有机会接触到。咖啡机,有生之年一定要买一个。狂一点的白日梦嘛?买下南美洲的小咖啡园有怎么说呢?


其实啊,周某我还有很多很多东西想要尝试叻!比如说跳伞,打Band,不停地开车,还要学很多很多东西。可惜我只剩下最多五六十年的时间去完成。话说得好,最美的还是白日梦。


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30 Day Song Challenge: Day 1 - Your Favourite Song


我听歌当饭吃的,要我选一首Favourite还真的不太容易。想了一下,就Fly Me To The Moon吧。为什么喜欢这首呢?歌词的关系吧,很佩服作词的那个家伙。Frank Sinatra的版本很不错,钟嘉欣的也不差,但是我还是比较喜欢Olivia Ong的。大家欣赏欣赏。



2011年5月31日星期二

The Free Verse Of An Insomniac

It happens in the night,
Where the wicked loneliness strikes.

It stays deep in my soul,
Wanders around and never goes.

Emptiness, sleeplessness and sorrow,
These are the scourges the lone bestows.

For tonight I wonder,
Where will all my good friends be ?
Are they gradually leaving me ?

For tonight I wonder,
How exquisite is your face ?
Or how your honeyed-smile shall taste ?

For tonight I wonder,
Will you feel me tomorrow ?
Alas only god will know.

As I reasoned and I thought,
Time fleeted and came the dawn.

There goes the closing of my eyes,
So as the closing of my mind.

Soon when I wake up from the snooze,
Breakfast will be lecture notes.

2011年5月16日星期一

The Climax

I only have 24 hours per day. Time management is not like dividing a round shaped pizza where everyone can get a piece of pizza that has the same size with the others. We should (I hope I do) divide our time based on work priority. Cut the crap, I am feeling guilty for not updating my bolg for so long, but assignments are killing me.

Climax - A period of time where all the big name assignments, quizzes and lab reports clumped together and the due date for all these fall within the same week and due dates are only 1 to 2 days apart. Usually, students in this climax period will suffer from heavy insomnia, stress, hormone imbalance, disruption of circadian rhythm and loss of body weight if stress persisted.

Week 11 of my 1st year 2nd semester in Monash University, where I have one biotechnology assignment, one psychology literature review, one biology lab report, one biotechnology close-book quiz, and two physiology online task that left undone yet, all of them due in the same week, but not for physiology tasks. But still, having so much assignment due at the same time is like Dementors wandering around you and take all your pleasure and happiness away.

It's okay, bring it on.

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I had my first dance performance on stage in my life. Was I Nervous ? Maybe a little, generally, no. How much did I give myself ? Eight of of ten. I was dancing Rumba. People refer Rumba as 'The Dance of Love'. Rumba is a form of Latin dance where it involves with complex footworks and many techniques. Actually, we did not have enough time to practice. We only had a few practice session before the performance. Still, we made it.

That was one of the longest 4 minutes of my life. When the music starts, the audiences were silenced. Physiological changes such as perspiration and increase in breathing frequency and heart rate was observed. Here's the story. We had been practiced so hard for the performance day. No matter how bad I danced, I will still be proud for myself, at least I tried, on stage.

I didn't have my best dance on the first day. Me and my partner was a little to nervous (maybe) and she accidentally knocked her own feet and nearly tripped, in the end, we had a lousy preparation steps in the beginning of the dance. I was like: Oh, this is really embarrassing. Afterwards, I did a major mistake in the end of my dance for the first round of performance where I mistakenly fasten the count for the steps. The second performance which I gave on the next day was way better. No major and observable mistakes, perfect synchronization and lack of nervousness. When they applauded, I felt relief because the performance was over. I felt sad because the performance was over.

I never know that dancing has so much fun. The tutor is good, the dancers are amazing, I really enjoy it. Too bad, I am easily impressed by many thing. Dances impressed me, and I like it. Should I take part in the performance group next semester? Too soon to say, but I shall see.


2011年5月14日星期六

The Frog Story

No words can describe how much I am afraid of frogs and toads. To me, frogs and toads are the most disgusting animals in the world, seconded by any other invertebrates with moist skins and soft body. Frog dissection is a must for 1st year science student in Monash University. For weeks I had convinced myself not to be afraid of this dissection experiment. Eventually, this self-hypnotizing method failed, epically.

That was a warm Thursday afternoon. I was early to the lab, try so hard to remind myself a frog is nothing to be afraid of. I took a deep breath and walked into the lab. I was stunned when I saw those frogs crucified on the metal tray. I heard that the blood of the frogs was drained out so that there will be not much blood when we cut their body opened. According to my logical interpretation of the statement based on biological facts, no blood simply means no life. I even observe the frogs and pronounced their dead since there was no contraction or relaxation observed on their lower jaw. No breathing and respiration observed. So, I thought all the frogs were dead (Obviously I was wrong). I was relief.

I was more relaxed than previous since I thought the frogs were all dead. A dead frog will never move (Again, I was wrong). After the briefing, I move back to my bench and my group members and I had some discussion before we started the dissection. I exclude myself from cutting the frog because I really do not have the guts to touch any frogs. Still I observed. So, they grabbed a pair of scissor and a scalpel. I was quite close (about 2..5 meter away) to the 'action site'. As they use the clamp to grab the skin located above the frogs' sternum, the frog regained its consciousness and struggled. Movement, I hate frog with movement. Within the time interval of milliseconds, thousands of neurons transmitted signals to my brain. I accidentally swore out loud and ran to the corner of the lab, trying so hard to open the back door that was locked. Everyone were looking at me and they were giving the 'WTF is going on to this idiot ?' looks on me. Don't blame me, blame the genes.

Still, they proceeded when I was calming myself down out of the lab. Few minutes later, I walked back in and the sternum was opened and basically all the organs of the frog were observable. The heart was still pumping, but according to my demonstrator, it was brain-dead, so the frog will not feel any pain.

'Okay, brain-dead, no more movement', I thought. Again, I calmed myself down and observed the anatomical structure of the frog. We were asked to remove the organs off the frog for observation. As they removing the organs, the frog gave contraction again. Eventually, I ran to the corner while I swore loudly, and I had the scared look (Yes, the kind where the eyes opened wide look.). Darn, why can't the frog just die anyway ?

Finally, the organs were all removed. Along the process, the frog did not move, which I think was logical. I mean, who can survive after all you internal organs were removed right ? And this time, I really thought that the frog was officially dead. I was really calm after all the organs are removed from the frog because I think at that point the frog will not move anymore (I was wrong for the third time). The final task of the experiment was to count the nerves ending from the spinal cord of the frog. Since the frog was already dead, I volunteered myself to do the counting. I picked up a pair of forceps and started the counting.

I was very close to the frogs' body (about 10-15cm away) to be more precise since the nerves are hardly observable. When I counted the nerves, I used the forceps to pick up one of the largest nerves that located on the tenth vertebra of the frog. This act of mine triggered reflex reaction of the dead frog and its lower limbs contracted. Instantly, I threw my the forceps away and screamed 'What The Fnck' repeatedly while running away from the lab. My group members were stunned and shocked by my sudden act. In the end, I made it through. At least I attended that lab session.

I couldn't slept that night. Whenever I closed my eyes, every scenes the frog struggled that I remembered flashed in my mind. I hate frogs, but I wouldn't kill them. I really feel sorry for the frogs since they died in such excruciating way, not to mention that they never deserve to die. I participated in an experiment that physically killed a frog, and I feel very guilty about it. I wonder how those people manage to kill their parents or own children without feeling guilty.

Heartless is so not me.

2011年5月1日星期日

The Fifth Month

'Forget who I was, remember who I am, and who I will be.'

If I am not mistaken, this is a quote from Charlie 'Chick' Benetto from the book 'For One More Day'. What I wanna say here is what he had say. I am not changing myself or what, just try to forget who I was, if you can.

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May, the fifth month, the month that I love the most: Labour's Day, Mother's Day, my birthday, my mum's birthday, all of them falls on May. To me, it's the month of love, too bad valentines day is not on May. How I wish I can be at home, having dinners that served by my mum, buy ourselves a birthday cake, celebrate our birthday together. I believed that it's destined, my birthday is on 23rd and her's on 24th, and both of us always say, we are each others greatest birthday present.

The stuffs I wrote on top are just some thoughts. It's May, means that there's only 1 more month to final exam. At this point, I should have started my revision, but too bad, I can't focus during semester break. But I promise I will start everything when the break ends.

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I really like to see the parents bringing their children out when they are free. Someday I want to be the one who bring my kids out. I want to bring them to McDonald's, buy them ice cream, teach them how to pick up girls or boys next table in school, cook for them, bring them to bed, prepare breakfast for them, watching them graduates, married, having my grandchildren ...

Pull me back, I went to far.

It's weird. The weird part is that, I haven't thought of the stuffs that I want to do with my girlfriends, yet I am thinking about I will do for my children. I must have a girlfriend to have a wife, and I have to have a wife if I want to have kids (of course, you can have it in the same way with someone that's not your domestic partner, well it's just bad, might be fun, but bad...), it's just like some procedure written in a D.I.Y manual right ?

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When you have kids, it might be ended up in a way in reality, where these funny conversations occur between you and your kids:

"Andy, I told you before, you can't eat the rubber duck in the bathroom, it's not a food"
"Look daddy, I drew a monster and it's grabbing your heads and bites your arm off !"
"Belinda, coffee powder is not for make ups !"

Or your kids asked you some questions that you can't explain to them due to their current intellectual level, for example:

Son:"Daddy, why can't I wear a dress like sister ?"
Me:"No, you can't, you are a boy."
Son:"Why I am a boy ?"

When this question pops out, there are many answers that you can try.

Me:"It's because there's a thing call sex chromosomes, and there's a thing call probability BLAH BLAH BLAH", ended up they might ask more or stare at you like they are just had a few seconds of coma.

OR...

Me:"Because when Santa see you wearing a dress he will stop giving you presents.", He might stop wearing dress until he is old enough to knows Santa doesn't care, as long as he behaves.

OR...

He stops me:"Daddy you lied, there ain't no Santa !"

And it goes on and on ...

When you bring them out, they might run around crazily, without destination, as they never run before. While they are running, you have to make sure that they don't get themselves lost, and you have to frequently ask them to drink water, wipe their sweats, bring them to poo poo, bring them home when they finally tired.

Pull me back, I went too far again...

Father's day and Mother's day are just around the corner, they born you, they grown you up, love them while you still can. Raising kids is hard, they had been there.

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Whenever we want to deny a person, or a fact, we have to keep few things in mind, which is: only do it when you are trying to correct a person's mistake on certain facts, and only you are really sure that you are right, based on the true facts and evidence. In the end, what matters is what's the truth is, not who's winning. A mature man can accept facts and realize he is wrong in the first place, and he will never be shy admitting it. Otherwise it will quite annoying to converse with such person. Nothing personal, just some thoughts.

Never deny someone because you just want to deny someone, even you know that you are wrong.

Never deny a someone just to provoke a meaningless argument.

Never be personal, do it only when you sure you are right.