2014年3月22日星期六

Updates




It's been an amazing journey of life for the past few months. Ups and downs of course. Well, up, mostly.


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Firstly, I got myself a job and I am surprised that I got the job.

Getting a job is exciting but working life is not easy at all. I have to wake up early in the morning (I don't get to skip my job like I skip my class while I was still a student), struggle through traffics, rushing my footsteps to the office to face paperwork that I am not bothered to judge whether if they are interesting or not. It's not easy to be a salesperson. Planning, persistence, patience, confidence and communication skills are needed and I am surprised that I manage to survive after almost four months. I never thought that I would ended up in this field when I was younger.

Well, I think, no matter what job you are having, the most important thing is to always keep ourselves learning and keep enhancing ourselves. Working takes up a lot of our time, but we really shouldn't let it kills off our passions. Working has never stopped me from doing the things I like. I still read, write, dance, playing my guitars, spending time studying chess games and still trying to discover new things to learn.

Life is meaningless without passion, and we should not stop living our life with passion.

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Secondly, I met an amazing girl. She is the most incredible girl I have ever met.

I knew this girl from the dance club. Few months ago, I barely knew this girl and not even well-acquitted with her. I just knew that she is a very good dancer with good musicality. She is so passive and quiet, but it did not take me long to notice that she is a very mentally-wholesome girl.

Long story short, I fell in love. We fell in love.

It's not easy to find a girl that can make you feel so much. When she's the reason behind your smile, your hard works, your sacrifices, your happiness, your worries, and the love that you are giving, you know that she is the right one. It is not easy to find a person that loves you back wholeheartedly and truthfully, but I am lucky and grateful because I found one.

It is amazing to see myself grow so much and change so much (positively) for a person.

I am in love, deeply, and I never felt this way before.

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Can we quantify love? Should we quantify love?

Love is love, in it's purest form. It doesn't matter how much you can give, and how much you get in return (even there's no return in the end). Once it's given sincerely and truthfully, it is love. It would be ridiculous to say something like "I love you three kilograms today since I owe you three kilograms of love last week. Can you give me six kilograms of love next month?"

Love is not a trade, love is a gift, and it is okay to not give love back if there's a good reason. It has to be given voluntarily and truthfully, that's what makes love special. If you love someone, you shouldn't worry if you can love them back the same way they love you or not. Why? It's simple, because love cannot be quantify.

Life is simple. If you think you are capable of loving them and you love them, just love them.

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Oh, I am addicted to Chinese songs again.

2014年1月9日星期四

Random Thoughts, Again.



"Beautiful things don't ask for attention."

I saw this statement when I was watching the movie 'The Secret Life of Walter Mitty'. It's a very inspiring movie.

Why would a man risking his life, spending tons of money to achieve a small task that required by his superior in the company? Sometimes, life is more than just that. Life is about passion. We have to love the things we do, or else it's going to be pointless even though we can excel in it.

Everyone was once young and beautiful, full of passions, filled with love and givings. Life is cruel, time kills them all sometimes. The only thing to keep life passionate is to be persevere. Life is hard, but most of the time, those little things that seems unimportant to us are the things that changes us, or at least, keep out passion alive.

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"The greatest gift you can give someone is your time, you are giving a portion of your life that you will never get back."

Saw this beautiful quote on the feed from Facebook. This is one of the quotes that I will remember forever. We are ordinary people with emotions and feelings. We all know that our lives are our time, and we know that no matter how long you live, time is precious. Spending time on people is like an investment. It's certainly not worthwhile to spend time on someone we dislike

Nonetheless, sometimes it might not be worthy to invest time in someone we like too. Why? Because in the end what you spend might not give you anything in return - it's like you paid for your lunch but it will never be served.

But is it true though? Why would people still spend time to people even though they knew things can never be sure? Why should people invest time on something that's no absolute answer? Well, it might seems like I'm having circular reasoning but the reason why people still giving is that people believe, people love, and people desire.

Life is full of maybes and there can be good maybes and bad maybes. What would happen, only time can answer.

Would I give my time to you? Regardless of what might be happening in the end, for beautiful things, I will.

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p/s: I feel like The Beatles, everything in this blog is about love. The Beatles has 12 studio records with the title that contains love, and hundreds and hundreds of 'love' appeared in their songs in their record in history.

Nothing to do here.

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By the way. New babe in the house. Daphne Blue finish, maple neck, maple fingerboard, Duncan Design Pickup, Two Point Synchrnize Tremolo with Block Saddle. She's not hot, but she is pretty.

2013年12月24日星期二

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又快一年了。

去年所发生的事,记忆犹新。其实说起来今年还过得蛮疯狂的。

首先,今年完成了许多自己一向来很想做的事情...

比如说去看演唱会。今年去看了好几个演唱会。美国乐团One Republic,韩国吉他天才Sungha Jung和苏格兰的Franz Ferdinand全都没有错过,逼近以前读书时错过的东西实在是太多了。

再比如说,今年和朋友有过两次road trip。一次是去停泊岛,一次是去槟岛。很久都没有和朋友去旅游了,直到今年。

再比如说,今年参与了大学的音乐剧,成了剧团的舞蹈员。我就是那个在演员唱歌演戏时在后面跳舞的那个。上台的时候感觉还蛮紧张的,因为到彩排的那天舞步都还没有记得。然而,表演还是算成功。这种经验算满新鲜的。

再比如说,今年再次参与了舞蹈社的表演。做梦也想不到自己会喜欢上跳舞。

再比如说,今年组了个小乐团,在大学里有过表演。表演不算很好,但是很开心自己把握了这些难得的机会。

再比如说,今年去了香港和澳门。之前想到出国旅行是一种奢侈。其实,旅行并不是奢侈,而是一种梦想。为了实现这个梦想,我逼了自己打了两个月多的工来赚旅游费。把大部分薪水花在这次的港澳游,我觉得很值得。

再比如说,今年成功结束大学生涯,顺顺利利地毕业了。参加毕业典礼的感觉怪怪的,又分欢喜,但就是不知道少了什么,因该是当时有点紧张吧。不过话说回来,这次倒有点可惜,因为时间的关系,典礼结束后错过了和course mate合照的机会。一生人就毕业那一次,到最后来还是错过了和朋友的毕业照。 

毕业了不久,我找到了一份工作。薪水其实是很不错,福利也差不多,就是工作性质我不太喜欢。我嘛,就是这么的宠爱自己,不喜欢的东西,再诱人也没用。不喜欢就是不喜欢。可我目前还没有选择。唉,其实能被聘请就该感恩了。

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Life is like a unsolved jigsaw puzzle. We look for the missing pieces everyday when we are 'moving on' with life. We look and look, and there are a lot of pieces that we are looking for. We have pieces like opportunities, we have wealth, we have love, we have friends, we have jobs and we have all sorts of pieces everywhere. We all know that it is not easy to find the right piece for our own puzzle, because there are just too much missing pieces and there are a lot of pieces that seems like fitting in but doesn't. We pick it up, we fit them in. If it doesn't fit in, we move one and look for another piece. It's is not an easy job to solve this big puzzle, it is a tedious job. Nonetheless, for the perfect masterpiece, finding the right puzzle piece for your life is definitely worthwhile. These pieces might seems very abstract. Yes, but you will know whether this piece is meant for you by how you feel about it.

I think I found the missing piece that belongs to me.

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30 Days Photo Challenge - Day 9 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most


She is my mum, do I need to say more? Love her and always will.

2013年12月1日星期日

The Paradox of Love


There are so many chances in life. Sometimes they can be very transient and sometimes they can be staying for very long. Sometimes, chances pretend like they are meant for you, but they are not. Sometimes, you might be surprised by those uninviting chances.

I talked to a friend recently. He told me that we should only fall for a person if we know him/her well enough. It's not a process that happens instantly. It's no Harry Potter magic.


I used to believe in what he said - true love takes time to happen...

...Which is somewhat true.

but...

A love that happens too fast is still love right?
Love isn't measured by how fast people fall for each other right?
A bridge is a bridge regardless how fast it is built. No?


I used to believe that love is a sacred thing...

...Which is still true.

but...

If love is really sacred, why do breakups and divorces happen?
Isn't it a responsibility to keep sacred things alive?


I used to believe that falling in love is difficult. It takes two compatible heart to fall in love, and it takes time to find a compatible heart....

...Which is indisputably true.

but...

Indisputably true? What if both of us fell easily in love?

How about love at first sight? It happens right?

If both never been through stumbles and obstacles, does it mean that the love isn't true?

What if one day I decided to find a compatible heart and it took me 1 hour to find it?

How can we be sure that that's the compatible heart?

How do we even know?


I used to believe that love is so sacred that the first person you fall for, or the first person you love, should be the person that going to be loved by you forever...

...I wish this can be a solid true but it's not.

but...

This is not a solid wrong too.
It's true because we shouldn't simply give our special love to everyone.
It explains love is sacred.

If love is sacred, why do we keep falling in for another one after we fell out from love?
It's not true because we do fall out from love.
Not every first love last forever.


I used to believe that we should let the stream leads us to where we belong, and if it belongs to you it will return....

but...

If you see a beautiful shore along the stream,
would you hop off from the stream to stay?

If you do choose to stay and you stayed forever,
isn't it violating the idea where faith has a plan for us?

If you do choose to stay and you stayed forever,
it's our choice to make it happened instead of faith. No?

If we see someone we love, we fight for the love that we deserve.
It's not faith but a choice. No?
If we succeed, isn't it violating the idea where faith has a plan for us?


...What a beautiful paradox of love.

"Love is hard" - James Morrison

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I don't know which is true anymore because I think there is no true or false in this.
Life was supposed to be simple.

I see the things we want in life, I fight for them.

We see love, we fight for love.

I see you, I choose to fight for you.

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30 Days Photo Challenge - Day 8 - A Picture That Makes You Laugh


The missing person in the photo was JY. He is coming back soon anyway. End of story. We've miss him enough.

2013年9月19日星期四

Be Vulnerable

"We have to be vulnerable to love and to be loved."

The above statement is true. If we are not emotionally vulnerable, there is no point to be in love or be loved. We feel happy and content when there's love. If we are not emotionally vulnerable, we can't feel the happiness from love, and there comes the point, what's love without feeling? Same goes with sadness. Being ignored, being hurt and being angered are all bad emotions, but it is okay to feel sad because that's part of love, that's part of our life. We are ordinary and we shall have feelings.

This is a short post yet I wish it makes sense to you.

These are the few shots that I particularly love...


The Silver Lining - Captured in Publika during a lunch session with some very good friends.


The Loner - Captured this during my stay in Melbourne. I love the contrast of this photo in which the loner was holding the umbrella and on the left there is a group of men walking in the same direction, not bothered by the drizzles.


Sunday morning on a Wednesday noon - This was a very very nice cup of coffee and I take this uniquely.


This was captured in a rainy day and I was stuck in the traffic. I love red colour.

... and yes I am fine.

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30 Days Photo Challenge - Day 7 - A Picture of Your Most Treasured Item


Yes, this is my first electric guitar and my 7th guitar. First love is always the best. This is an Epiphone Casino and I get this from the promotion. It features two P90 pickups and and full hollow body. This model is famously owned by Gary Clark Jr,.John Lennon, and the rest of The Beatles. Paul McCartney once said that he will choose Epiphone Casino if he has to pick only one guitar to live with for the rest of his life.

You don't have to be a good player to see how beautiful this guitar is, because she is beautiful, or more precise, sexy.

2013年8月7日星期三

随写

I don't wanna be a tourist, I wanna be a traveler.

白色的背包坏了大概有一年吧,很久了都没有想过要买新的。然而在去停泊岛前我买了一个蓝色的背包。其实买这个背包不是因为旧的坏了而买的。买这个蓝色的背包是象征着梦想背包旅游的开始。

好想带着我那个蓝色背包迷失在某个国家的某个城市。没有目标,看见什么就想做什么。一个人走在某个城市里的角落,呼吸当时城市散发出来最真实的空气。

什么都好,哪里都好。很久都没有迷路时又觉得很新鲜的感觉。很想念走错路时还很想继续走错的感觉。

脚走着的每一步都怀疑着自己是否在梦境,而不是自己身在何处。我想要从新感觉。

旅游不是注重你去过那里,而是你感受过那里。

不是,食物,而是味道。不是雨水,而是天气。不是沟通,而是人情。不是价钱,而是价值。不是旅伴,而是友情。不是照片,而是回忆。

感受,才是最真实的旅行。


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30 Days Photo Challenge - Day 6 - A Picture of Your Favorite Book


Not sure if this is my favourite book, but I choose this based on the list of books I have here on my desk. Regardless of how I choose this, this book is definitely one of my favourites. This book is delicious, touching, and inspiring in some way. It gave me an idea about why people are different and why it is okay to be different from other people. Yes, this is a very very good read and I am very sure that I am going to read this book again.

Know what? This book was only 5 dollars and it's a hardcover book. Totally worth it.


"Thin Blue Smoke is an epic redemption tale, the story of two men coming to terms with their pasts. It is also a novel about faith, race, storytelling, bourbon, the language of rabbits, and the finer points of barbecue technique."

I highly addictive page-flipper I would say.

2013年7月24日星期三

林羽芳

好啦好啦,就再写多一次中文,反正我又不是最后一次写,也肯定不是最后一次。加上自己也很久都没有写中文了,也是时候锻炼自己的文笔了。

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这是一个丑小鸭变天鹅的故事。

怎么认识羽芳我自己都不太记得了。能肯定的是我们是在舞蹈社认识的。

舞蹈设里美女如云,全部都胸挺臀翘,腿部细细长长,靡颜腻理,跳起舞来个个姿态亭亭玉立。就有一次在Spartan热身时,簇簇美女之间发现到一位身型矮小的女生。老实说,她的头发当时是有点凌乱,染上褐色的头发不均匀地撒在黑色头发之间,配上那幅黑色的粗框眼镜,再看着她外八的脚板和粗略的小腿带着她矮小的身子笨拙地行走着,加上她那带着牙齿矫正器的笑容,第一眼就看得出这小姐肯定不是什么淑女型的女生。


结果一点都没错。


当时相信很多人都不以为然,毕竟只不过是新会员,也不是没有见过新会员第一次做Spartan的热身。可是我很好奇,当时的我也只知道她的名字叫Yue Fang,姓什么,从哪里来,读什么course一点也不知道。我只知道的是,这个叫羽芳的女生每天和其他人说话都眼睛眯眯地,傻里傻气地笑着。

就有一次,像往常一样,大家在热身后练习舞技(俗称Corners)。当时我注意到羽芳在当天的练习时说话特别大声。每一个动作后都转过头看着朋友傻笑。很多时候也不知道她在说什么。其中一个要练习的技术是跳和跃。这个羽芳,跳得很奇怪也很笨拙,看起来好像一只很想学会飞的企鹅。当然,跳完之后她还是气喘喘地坐在Sook Kuan的旁边,又继续傻笑聊天。终于,我忍不住用广东话和她开了一个玩笑:“喂,你偷鸡啊...”。那时候她有点不好意思地看着我,可是她还是在傻笑着。那次之后就开始和她谈得来了。

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“来,Sook Kuan,我们cincai去摇一下就可以了”


很多时候热身时都听见她和其他女生鬼扯,大声讲大声笑。热身时Michelle之后笑最大声的应该是她了。她跳舞时还是维持着那幅傻笑。每个人跳舞时都很专心地数拍子,而这个羽芳就一直笑,跳错也不管。我还是很少主动和她说话,大部分见到她都是和她开玩笑地打招呼。认识她的都知道,羽芳和其他女生比起来其实是很大方的。和她交谈时没有什么不能开的玩笑。暗讽黄腔统统都可以开。

虽然有所交谈,但是当时的我还是不太了解她,在我眼中,当时的她很像丑小鸭,因为她一直很想把舞跳得很好,可是在Corners的时候时常有心无力。

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舞蹈设里的朋友都很努力地为要到来的表演练习。假期时大家都很努力的练舞。基本上每个人都尽量出席舞蹈班,在练习时也特别使劲。当然,羽芳也不例外。

记得某一天,羽芳缺席了。不久后才发现原来她受伤了。在Facebook上看见她拿着拐杖的照片,顿时我愣了数秒钟,不知如何是好,毕竟当时离表演也不久了。

就有一下午,大家都在舞蹈室外的走廊热身,我看见羽芳走进舞蹈室,脸上没有平常那样的笑容。我心中有数,大概也猜到结果。没错,羽芳的医生劝说羽芳需要长时间休息养伤,无法参与我们一起在五月表演了。那时候我的感觉真不好受,毕竟自己也经历类似的经验。

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没有羽芳的舞蹈设还真的很不习惯。朋友的笑声中始终弥漫着解释不了的空虚。就在表演的两三个礼拜前,羽芳最终还是决定了忍着痛回到舞蹈设练舞。很多人都被她突然的回归感动到,毕竟忍痛带着微笑上台表演几支舞不是一个容易的决定。当然,感动之余也很兴奋,因为羽芳回来了。她的归来也对大家的士气上有所鼓励。

表演当天,化上妆,穿上了舞裙,在灯光下跳起舞来。大家心里都知道这只丑小鸭在决定负伤表演时已经变成了天鹅。舞台上的她,一点都不缺魅力。没有傻里傻气,没有凌乱的头发,没有起眼的错误,粗略的小腿随着音乐的拍子跳着跳着,跳出了她对舞蹈的热忱。那晚最开心的可能也就是她了吧。

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记得有一次,羽芳好像在埋怨着她的身材和那个烦人的牙齿矫正器。结果我就开玩笑地告诉她:“哎呀,忍忍几个月吧。几个月之后就像Jessica Alba了。”

几个月后,矫正器拿开了,加上跳舞燃烧掉的卡路里,羽芳还是没有变成Jessica Alba。但是不得不说,羽芳变得更加可爱了。

“果然变成了Jessica Alba。”,见到她我开玩笑地说。

她就只是看着你,傻傻地笑着。她自己知道自己又变成天鹅了。

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羽芳这大姐,玩大时候疯狂得来也表现得很大方,再加上自己时常自嘲讨大家欢心,总之她就是个开心果,所以她在朋友之间很得宠。

她跳舞时变天鹅,走路时像黑帮,睡觉时像婴儿,认真时像妈妈,考试时变嫦娥,玩乐时像猴子,练舞时就偷鸡,读书时像小孩,穿裙时像淑女,说话时像老大......

看起来羽芳好像是千变万化似的,但是这就是羽芳。


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30 Days Photo Challenge - Day 5 - A Picture of Your Favourite Memory.

This is actually a hard one. There are so many good memories that I remember, yet so little photos were taken for these good memories. Note that it is 'memory' not 'memories', I have to pick one to post here out of all my favourites. I am in the mood for beach now, so...


My stay in Sydney was one of my favourites. I particularly like this shot. Not long (few minutes) after this photo was taken my camera was spoiled for unknown reason. It was a waste that all the good things that I experienced in Australia were forced to be eternalized in the form of memories, instead of photos. But hey, isn't our eyes equivalent to the camera lens and the brain equivalents to the memory card?